My year - 2012

When i´m looking back at 2012 im thinking about that so much has happend!
Lots of good thing and bad things...
In february Bianca was born, one of the happiest moments in my life! It feels like it was yesterday i was pregnant, not almost a year ago... Time is walking by so fast, and sometimes it feels like i cant keep up! Bianca is almost a year now! A whole year has passed since the day i was at the hospital...
Every day, week and month with her has been full with adventures, laughing, crying and love!
She has learnd so much during this time, and you really see lots of me and Jeroen in her, but she also has her own wonderful personality. The time i had with her this year i wouldnt trade for anything, its the greatest gifts of all to be her mummy!

Another big thing that happend was in april when we moved to our new apartment in Vippan. We really really like it here, even though Gruvstaden isnt that good... But we really love the neighbourhood, kind of feels like being "home" again. And i hope we can live here forever! Maybe move to a bigger apartment, but i dont want to leave Vippan if i really dont have to.

We made a few travels aswell this year... In june we went with my family on a cruise! We had a really good time! And i think even Bianca liked it!
Later in the summer Bianca went on her first loooooooong trip! We went to see the family in Holland! We had so much fun there even though i think Bianca was tired from the trip! But when we were there we were biking, fishing, went to zoo, dolphinarium, walking, swimming....
I really love Holland and i really miss the people and the place...

In the very end of the summer our family got a new member named Zelda! We had wanted a dog for a long time and we thought that now when i had distant-school we thought that it was a good time to get one, when we both were home. So we looked over the internet and we found the black adorable puppies! She is now alsmost 6 months old and she is full of energy!

In november we celebrated my dads birthday, Jeroens birthday and we celebrated Anders and Malins daughter Nova who came into the world!

Now in december, the last month of the year and also my favorite, we have been preparing lots for christmas... Buying presents, baking, cooking and all!
Bianca has been lucia and a little mini-santa! Our big girl!
Its christmaseve on monday and we are going to celebrate it with my sister and her family, Peter and Christine and my aunt and cousin. Anders and Malin will be with her family!

Well, lots has happend during my 2012!
I am so happy with my life!

Wednesday!

Some people are just so false...
They say one thing to you but in reality they suddenly mean something different.
I feel so sorry for them. They try to treat you well but you soon see through the false picture.
I wonder how people like that can live with themselves, dont they see it themselves? Or are they just so busy by acting that they dont want to care?

Oh well, at least i am happy with my life and what i have. A lovely family and friends!
Friends comes and goes, but i have some friends i know i will have my whole life!
And i have the best man ever by my side through life!
And my wonderful daughter that i will love for all eternity!
Speaking about her, her flu is not getting better and i even think she has a fever now, she was very warm in the afternoon... :(

No phones today either :( It said on the internet that they we are the mail office 2 days ago but still they are not here :( I dont know if the mailman lost his way in all the snow or if it just takes time.. We want our phones!!! :)
Its like waiting for Santa on Christmas eve...!!
We are also waiting for Anders, Malin and Nova, who said they were coming over this afternoon, so we will see if they show up!

1 advent

I dont know what "advent" is in english...
But we are "celebrating" this day with a big cleaning of our home. Vaccum cleaning, mopping the floor, cleaning the bathroom and the windows, putting some christmas stuff up...
And its cold today! -16!
It feels so good to have a clean home! Its not often we do this big cleaning! We should more often though ;)
It feels kind of unreal that its already december! Its my favorite month of the year! All the preparations for christmas, and the real winter!
But at the same time, december goes faster then any other month. Its just 3 weeks until christmas and almost 4 weeks until new year... And then its new year and a new chapter in our lifes.
In february next year Bianca will start daycare! And i will go back to study full time! Looking forward to be almost done... I can finally see a end in the very long tunnel!
I only have 3 terms left! Wohoo! Then i hopefully never have to go back to school again!

Had my friend Lenita over today for some photoshoots and to let the dogs play some! The dogs really like the snow! Zelda goes crazy!
But it sucks that Bianca is starting to have a cold AGAIN! Her noose is dripping again and her coughing is starting again when she sleeps... Seems that she cant stay healthy for many days :(
We were going to town with my sister this afternoon, but since Biancas cold is getting worse, we think its better to stay home since its so cold.

Today we are going to open our presents from Holland! I´m so excited!
Curious as always ;)
And its fun for Bianca to open presents, although she thinks the paper is most fun ;)
Here is a picture of our mini-santa!
Cutest thing ever!

Lazy monday

Today has been one of thoose days when you just dont do anything useful...
We started the day with giving the babies food and i walked a bit with Zelda. I was out with her this morning around 5 aswell, she had a bad belly... But we think we know why...
The past days she has been picking up every chewinggum she could find...
Sometimes we see it and sometimes we dont, so no wonder she has a bad belly... But we will be more careful now that we know what is happening.

The rest of the day we have mostly spent inside... We took a walk, all together, we usually do that at least once everyday now. Its good for us and for Bianca.
But the weather here has been so bad the past weeks... No sun at all... Just rain, wind, wet snow and clouds... So no fun in being outside either...
Yesterday we saw two mooses when we were walking! They were just walking around in peoples gardens, like they had no problems in the world...
We were like 15-20 meters from them, and of course none of us had a phone with a camera so we couldnt take pictures! But it was a nice little event, and Bianca saw her first moose!
Zelda went like crazy when we passed where they crossed the road, she was all sniffing and started to growl and bark! Hehe, stupid dog ;)
Or maybe she would be a great moose-hunting-dog ;)

We are still exercising with Bianca about her walking. Or half walking as it is. She is walking really good if you hold her hand. She can also take 3-4 steps herself, if she puts her effort in it. Mostly she just smiles and gets on her knees and crawl instead cause its faster! Haha!
She is so cute!

Anyway, its time to go to bed, tomorrow me and Bianca are going to parent-meeting. Most mums and babies there, not many dads, so Jeroen is not really interested im afraid...
But tomorrow we are going to the library! And Bianca will get a book! Exciting!

Here is a picture from todays walk!

Almost christmas... or not?

I started a little early with the decorations... Or i dont know if its called decorations, but the "candlesticks" is in the windows... I had to google the word "ljusstake"... I dont think the word really suits the thingy but whatever...
I took a picture just to share the feeling, i so love december!

 

 

Over to something else... I dont know what just happend... But somehow i ended up ordering a pizza, that Jeroen is going to pick up now when he is walking with Zelda...

What happend? Ooops.... Well, shit happens!
I guess i will just go with the flow and eat my share ;)
Then we are going to bed, or something... No, im going to take a shower first!

See you laters!

Breaking Dawn part 2

This afternoon its going to happen!
I´m finally going to see the finalt movie in the Twilight-Saga!!!
I´ve been waiting for it for a year now!
My sister is going to babysit Bianca for a few hours so me and Jeroen can go to the cinema!

The coughing is coming back again to :(
So we havent been able to meet Nova yet... But its no point if we are not 100%...

Well, dont have time to write more, we need to get Bianca awake and feed her a bit and then get her dressed and walk to my sister!
For the rest, having Bianca sleep once a day is still working!

Another niece

Today my little brother and his lovely girlfriend had a daughter!
She is so cute, but what i know, she has no name yet.
That also means that Bianca is not the youngest member of the family anymore!
She is a big girl now! And she now already has 6 cousins, and one on the way still...
I am so happy for Anders and Malin, and we will see when we will visit. It doesnt feel right to visit them at the hospital, she probably will go home in a few days. And i know how i felt the days after we came home, i was totally finishes... Didnt have any energy at all, and there is everything new!
So i dont really wanna visit until they invite us in, when they are ready.
My mum was going to visit this weekend, we will see if we will go with her.

When i think back on the time when Bianca was really tiny (like newborn) i mostly remember good things, sure i had a little struggle in the beginning, but i dont think i really understood how lucky we were, and what a calm and sweet baby we had, and still have.
I love my daughter so much, it hurts in my heart when i think about what i would do without her.
I am so greatful that we kept her, and i wouldnt change my life for anything in the world.
I have to mest wonderful man by my side, the best family and friends, and of course the best daughter in the world!
We have started to let Bianca sleep once every day now instead of two, since she was awake alot in the nights before so we tried to keep her awake from 8 (thats when she usually wakes up) until 11, then we give her some lunch, and then we put her to sleep, and then she sleeps for 1-2,5 hours - ish and then we keep her awake until 19, then we give her the bottle, brush her teeth and put her to bed :)
And the past days she done good with that! She sleeps until at least 8 in the morning!

Sometimes i am thinking about having more kids (later on i know, we cant before i finish school, but LATER), but i am still not sure... I am saticfied with Bianca as it is, and i wonder how she would react to a sibling. I´m sure she would be happy, when that time comes, but some days im not even sure i want another one. Even though i think there will be at least one more ;)

Now Jeroen is going out with Zelda for her last walk for the day, and i am going to brush my teeth and go to bed! This has been a really nice day!