Cyprus next?

My little brother want me and Jeroen to go to Cyprus with him and Malin...
but i just dont know... Feels wrong to leave Bianca...
My mum said she wanted to babysit for a week, and that it would be good for me and Jeroen to get away for a bit.
And i can agree to that, it probably would be good for us, but how can we think like that when we have a daughter now? Its not our needs that we need to put first now.
I must admit that i am afraid that she will feel sad or that we are abandoning her.
It would feel like "We leave you at grandmas and go on vaccation for a week - Byebye"
If we cant bring her on vaccation, maybe we shouldnt go?
I mean you dont get a kid and then you go on vaccation? And what if something happend to her or to us? I would never forgive myself...

BUT, at the same time it feels like that if we would want to do something alone we probably should do it now.
Damn, its hard to decide...
I have been dreaming of going far away for so long... And specially with Jeroen. But it kind of never happend. And now we have a baby, and that doesnt make things easier... So what to do? Go, dont go? Go, dont go?